I feel like I’m slipping.
I am not sure where to or what into. In trying to explain my current state I’m finding no answers, nor any reasons. My father has been on my mind a lot as of late. My ankles and body are reminding me that physical pain can only be ignored for so long. The odd bit is that I have several things to be happy for in my life . . . and in those things I am. I’ve recently been able to spend a good amount of time with my kids, just being with them. Maybe I’m just tired. As of late I’ve been seeing things at night, this morning I heard someone’s voice call me, it was a simple “Sam”. Sounded a lot like Jake, maybe dad.
But I’ve got a lot that needs to get done. A lot of things people want of me and things to knock out. Not that I didn’t do it to myself and not that I don’t enjoy doing it. I think it’s a matter of keeping busy to ignore what’s underneath.
Enjoy the video below. I watch it and while the images are beautiful it still saddens me. Can’t quite figure it out. But the video is some awesome work and done by some very talented individuals. I strongly recommend watching it full screen in HD if your system will allow.